Dear You Who I've Loved And Lost

Inspired by Faith and Azra's posts I decided to write a letter to someone in my past.

Dear V,
It's always hard to start a letter, especially to someone who once meant something. You meant something to me. You were my first love. But not the last. I didn't know it then. I thought the world of you. I thought there was nothing or no one past you. The love we had for each other was crazy. The memories, the times spent together, the kisses, the cuddles, the hugs, the whispers...

We've loved with all the passion we could muster, haven't we?

So why do I feel, looking back, that you've played me? Did you mean all the words you once whispered in my ears? And what about that day you waited for me in the airport lounge? The flowers? What would you have said to me then? That you still loved me?

I haven't thought about you in a long time but it wasn't easy forgetting you. It hurt. Remembering. Wishing.

I have so many questions I want to ask you. But you know what? It doesn't matter anymore. The long hard years numbed the pain inside. Till it disappeared. All of it. Walking down memory lane I don't relate to the me then. The now me and the then me are so different. Part of me is glad. Glad that I didn't elope. Glad that I chose to leave you behind.

Today I thank god you didn't fight for us. Fight for our love. And I thank you too. Your weakness became my strength.

You've raised the bar for the other men in my life. For that, again, I thank you. Else, I wouldn't be married to someone who resisted the urge to take flight at the slightest display of opposition.

I thank you.

Sincerely,

No Longer Yours

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